Diorama - Pale (1999)

"Between the Shadow and Me"

I cannot see your smile
In any crowd I look
I cannot call your name
From here

I fall for your deceives
As if you were my friend
As if your shapeless words
Were mine

I know you lie to me
Although you speak the truth
The difference lies in
Your hands

I cannot see your smile
You won't distort my view
Companion, now I have
To walk the way behind you

"Contradictive"

As he stood and tried in vain
To find justification
This cannot bloom in me for longer
With old desires getting stronger

Another man was passing by
And for a glimpse in strangely seemed
That they were known to one another
In spite of being contradictive

A cloud-like shimmering appearance
He raised his voice began to speak
Your existence drowns in failure
Into a suffering decay

Pale accumulating letters
Stuttering relief
Last time standing kid
Better take advantage of

Do not shiver in your sanity
At least you've got emotions
Do not shiver in insanity
At least you've got emotions devotions

Are you a wiseman or a prophet
That you can judge and turn the key
I never caused your intuition
Thus it was bound to your deceit

The only reason for existence
Of the question why
Learn to cope with rare conditions
You didn't even know before

Do not shiver in your sanity
At least you've got emotions
Do not shiver in insanity
At least you've got emotions devotions

Glued to life he tried in vain
Reduced the essence of his body
Entering slowly smooth declare
A magnificent new sphere

"I Wait for You"

I like your time I like your thinking
And drowning in our weird obsessions
I kiss your feet as you are walking by
And feel your potion on my lips

The sundance and your eyes
Invincibly combined
Still wondering what to pray for
Tell me why I die to please you

I wait for you I wait for you now

Shouldn't it be sad that one's alive
Unjust sentence to endure
Reminding all the tears we drank together
You cannot leave me all alone

Hesitation and my mind
Invincibly combined
Still wondering what to pray for
Tell me why I die to please you

I wait for you I wait for you now

Your hazy breath intoxicating
Illumination starts to fade
Blinded eyes cannot see a companion
A divided soul I offer to repay

I won't rely on someone's patience
Another vision of delight
My childhood fears should lie in graves now
Innocence I must deny


"Leaving Hollywood"
Emptiness dead-smooth and choking the air
I'm leaving Hollywood if you don't care
Lost in the twillight of self-consciousness
Trying to picture the smile you might wear

Where are the plastic doves ready to kill
The Inspiration I try to fulfill
Cry for my sister on Valentines's Day
You'll find me lying on Hollywood Hills

Spoke to an acolyte coming my way
The weather is fine what a wonderful day
His bloody robe suits him tolerably well
But he can never induce me to stay

You double-dealing voice hits me so low
But I'm your henchman so I have to go
Nobody sees that I'm only your frame
When I left Hollywood they all will know

Someday you're gonna crucify me in a black painted room
You're gonna call all your opponents
Who's gonna spit me in the face
Hit me in the face
And I will laugh about everyone
I'd cover my mug if I could


"Said But True"
And if you offer everything you have
I still want more
Face and body lacking relevance
I still get bored

Cleft in frozen lakes I'm sailing on
Ancient scar
Try to reach me way too short your chains
Bound as you are

What an honest kind of lie
For the final answer I dare to ask you for

You took me this far
You made me need to change

Could you ever think I'd give
Attention to the true effect of your words
Of your disease

Uninfected I remain
Insensible immune and deaf
Untouchable like clouds

You took me this far
You made me need to change
You took me this far
I never will return

"Kain's Advice"
It's a feeling I won't anchor here
No rest impatient flood
A cowards' flight has turned to strolling walk
Or even pure attack

Still death is our rescue
But not this one
Never this one
As appearing this end may be
It's caused grief is real heavenly and cruel

These smile-evoking silent lips
Will never speak a word again

Forgive me

Could this drama end dazing drama end finally
All your miracles shining miracles illusory

I couldn't listen to even hear your promised lullaby
Angels wings are gone angels wings are gone I'll never fly

Still kept in motion still operating
Scuff at the puppet
Far too late I severed like Kain from guilt
Flying from pale dreams

I was wrong

It's a feeling I won't anchor here
Follow now and drown like a stone
In a mental world cursed humanity
Reach for water like gold

Too late now

Father never took
Father never took advice from it
Brother started to
Brother started to deny the deeds
I couldn't listen to
Even hear your promised lullaby
Angel's wings are gone
Angel's wings are gone I'll never fly

I'll never fly

"Belle?"
You come on dance with me
To the end of the world

Still remember your smiling face in the big crowd
Laughing, shouting and waving your hands
Staring at me instead of
Turning away to the show

Blind in one eye I stood still at the outside
Yearning for solutions
While the dancers were turning
Faster and faster towards me

The words in your letters I couldn't decipher
Never allowed to fall for the sun
For the rain is intended for me

Come on dance with me
To the end of the world

Absorbed in the lips
Of a graceful dancing princess
Too deeply affected, too bright the sun
But my shadows have always loved you

Empty stage now peace of mind
Rememberance of the time instead
Save another dance only for me
Only for me

You come on dance with me
To the end of the world

Unvoiced my swaying promises
Unproved the impossible
I cannot fall for the sun
The rain is intended for me


"Masquerades and Faces"
Will you bear my everlasting sorrow?
Will you suppress my indifference?
Holy nail in my coffin
Holy queen of my illusions

Feeling pale like the moon above me
Here I am nude and immortal
Leave a tear on my pillow
My final resting place, my comfort

Talk to me, lie to me
Comfort me, lie to me

Still I'm dying to believe
That I have lost the air to breathe
Beloved failure has left
A thousand scars forevermore

Behind the masquerades and faces
Faithless longing for forgiveness
And is the truth
Another fiction of you?

Can you sing, can you raise the dead?
Still I live for a hazy silhouette
Fill my eyes with your splendor
Like glassy jewels falling down on you

Your divinity tastes like perjury
And deception means the end
Can you feel, can you feel the burden
A sacred heart is longing for?

Will you bear my everlasting sorrow?
Will you suppress my indifference?
Holy nail in my coffin
Holy queen of my illusions



"Another Queen"
Systems slaved to secrets
Wisdom unsuspecting quest
Silence holy true old friend of mine
Timid tries to race me down

Another episode of wild complains
Closes chapters of childish struggle inside
Pale naked as now thoughts cannot deny
The purpose of neglecting lies

Withered fairy all my dedication
All my love for you

Believe in the signs I dram on your skin
Secrets now told as final advice
Another queen that will never rise


"Bring Me Flowers"
Bring me flowers in the night
Lay your cheek down by my side
Leave my lovers full of need
And my brothers full of greed

Hush now, slowly come inside
Feel your neck glow, it's alright
See me sunk here into deep
Bring me flowers when I sleep

Caressing hands, warm like the sun
I feel your breath inside my lungs
Smile peacefully and take
My hands on your face, I won't awake

Are you here for a final goodbye?
Did your soul fall or fly?

Love disguising fluid within
Your warm teardrops on my skin
All my lovers disappeared
And the others were never here

I drank the ashes of desire
Brought about and lost it all
Gloomy chamber fading light
Bring me flowers in the night

All your mercy is not melting with mine
Did your soul fall or fly?


"Pale"
Speechless and fearful
Suffocated by air
Escaped from your grasping
I couldn’t stay there

One single day longer
Now that I had
Exposed what your facades
And walls didn’t say

Attracted by wisdom
And seductive psalms
I followed your footsteps
Wherever I was

Talking by glances
People stay dumb
Hostile words getting
Even meaner like this

Your lap offered comfort
Deliverance your touch
Divine and indulgent
You hurt me so much

I woke up but it was
Already too late
I said if I shall die
Please never here

Leaving I may be
While knowing for sure
Soon I will be with you...
...again